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Home Is Where The Heart Rots

by Incandesca

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1.
Rot In Peace 01:01
"Rot In Peace" by: William J. Lever I'd give everything I have for a sense of family. I never had. You claim security, I say I'm not the one. So speak your peace. So speak it, fuckin rot. Rot here with me. Rot here with me.
2.
"Magic Warrior Juice" by: William J. Lever Physician, heal thyself Your art is war Feel for the battle We will crush the enemy A good man Must go to war Riddled with impudence We're settling the score Realities splinter Time's assassins' Pollute the timestream A thousand possibilities all at once This war is hell Twisted abominations black out the stars The nightmare child born Her end is nigh A good man Must go to war Weep for those lost Weep for those you can no longer remember This anti-time, it eats everything So much you can't remember Locks of amber ignite the flame Unsuspecting flies caught in ember Unlocking the hatred needed To unleash the moment This will all soon change With the blink of an eye The tide will swallow us whole But the tide of war has a habit of changing NO MORE GALLIFREY FALLS NO MORE GALLIFREY FALLS NO MORE NO MORE DOES IT FALL
3.
"Immoral Support" by William J. Lever You call this a choking hazard? You have my permission to stop Upon internal bleeding Fed up, You gave in to peer pressure I'm not asking nicely anymore You strung me up Made me a fool for all to see Some loyal friend, so quick to cutthroat You want some blessing As if I speak untruths The darkness won't find you Oh, I know it hurts And believe me you should be scared Because there are real life monsters out there I saw your eyes Looking for someplace to hide Your insecurities You fixed them on me Swore off as irrational The fear that set me free Some worthless bliss To be stranded alone like this Coercing me to break You sit perched On both my shoulders Weighing me down Whispering, "Everybody loves a proper downfall." Smeared integrity Now that the blood is on the other cheek Who's laughing now?
4.
"Zachary Quinto Rides In My Pinto" by William J. Lever Syllables exasperated gasps from the hole in your throat Feel lonely like a cancer, I'm feeling more alone I never wanted this, I just want it to stop Pull the plug, end life support, cut it off Expressive as the surgeon With lines drawn and marks made Brush strokes laid bare unto flesh, hard outlines pressed to fill the portrait red You savor the pain, the expression in your eyes a downward spiral You turned your life into a fucking soap Been on the air for far too long Another melancholy episode Is this the one where you die alone? This is the afterthought of life Only sparing the cost No second glance to spare To look back at what's been lost The scars of a dying world At least we can say we felt something We felt something I was the catalyst You were my condemnation I was the catalyst You were my condemnation God damn you, god damned me Another useless oath upon my chest What is this? I must confess I'm faithless, strung out by another faceless deity I will not bow my head in worship I'm not feeling well, spare me the medication I'm not feeling quite myself What's left of me circling the drain Circling the drain
5.
"Will Of The Wasp" by William J. Lever You don't care.. You don't care.. You don't care.. you don't care You won't You don't care.. You don't care You say you will but when? You swear you will but when? You don't care, you don't care You won't say What you're feeling Cause it's a disease, what I'm seeing What I know you're thinking about me I'm hopeless, I'm a rotting mind Not worth your while You won't waste a breath on me You don't care, you don't care You won't stay I'm lonely, I'm hoping there's something more But I can see it in your eyes that I'm a bore Filthy, awful, decomposing I'm a metaphor For something you never wanted For something you had thought that you wanted But with me here The reality sets in I am the one who's lost And you are the cause Ugh, I feel the sting It's the will of the wasp The one who disowns me Ugh, I feel the sting It's the will of the wasp The one who controls me I feel the sting You don't ever wanna hear me sing again Locked in a cage, I'm on display Full of rage, malevolent hate for the world that I am living in I hate you, you hate me Another day on the fucking merry-go-around Ugh, I feel the sting It's the will of the wasp The one who devours me Spare me, this pain grows It's the only home I've ever known Through it all; every cut and bruise I've earned I have learned that home is where the heart rots.
6.
"Inconceivable!" by William J. Lever & Chris Lyons As you wish! Now behold the complacent one He speaks through shades of doubt Second guessing a self-serving nature Spoon-fed and rusted over Agh... Something to be said for The notion of going under Relapsed intelligence Caught up in this spider's web of lies Perpetuating ideocracies Synchronize the bloodletting The failing breath of a falling nation Renewed in the ashes of your hubris In the ashes of your hubris Made a motion to speak today To slip right through the cracks again In destitution, discovering clarity Defying the singularity Where is the message, we heard before? Freedom for all Freedom for all Burn all the evidence And close the gates Put on the blindfold Head in the sand The less you know the better (Ignorance is bliss) We'll deviate to lead the way Freedom from shackles Of your fire and fury In this pacified state Only fighting back common sense What more can be done for For the guidance of the feeble minded What shall we do? Erect a barrier to keep you From falling off the cliff From believing to your death Burn all the evidence And close the gates Put on the blindfold Head in the sand The less you know the better (Ignorance is bliss) We'll deviate to lead the way Freedom from shackles Of your fire and fury This is a call to arms Before your freedoms flatline Before the powers that be Stall any further progress The change you seek resides in the dreamers Like you and me We weren't born for sterile existence Wage slaves to profit pinchers The chance to live is now Exorcise the lesser of two evils Vote for that you hold true Vote for me and you Gather in your masses Breeding cancers Spreading disease Like you don't have the answers Cut loose your idols They're underground Decaying with the promises strewn around As hollow as you've been Your words no different You are no different Another empty vessel
7.
"Clouds Need Friends Too" by: William J. Lever I have an aversion to people. An adverse reaction, and as my throat swells I won't speak but not for reasons you might think it's cause these words don't work. You know as well as I that I have my way with them But I can't use them to help. This situation or any of my past mistakes. I miss my friends. The one's I never had. And I miss the good times, The moments and memories we never shared. I've my head in the clouds and I'm not coming down. Sever the ties to the dreamer With the scissors you took from my hands. Into nightmares falling I can not feel my tongue Cause you use the words I talk with, BITING DOWN. If this is heaven, This feels like hell If this is heaven, This feels like hell What I am was grown from a seed within the fire of a harlot's mouth. I am filthy but most of all what I am is worth all the while. If you could find the freedom to take me in your mouth. This is my nightmare. This is heaven sent, this is hell to me. This is heaven sent, this is hell to me.
8.
"Bless Your Heart" by William J. Lever "Where's your heart?" "I lost it looking for you.." "Why are you so cruel?!" "I didn't say I was good.. Only that I knew better." I awoke to screaming To find I was alone With the loudest thoughts Wired up to the loudspeaker in my head The very nature of the heart It beckons forth to me Begging to fail With every blessing I'll destroy I am the very worst of what I knew You are the end all of my sins Drop the bomb upon everything I hold dear Loud and clear to make it known The sound of my heart as it self destructs Shrapnel feeds fading hands, and I can't keep up The very nature of the heart It beckons forth to me Begging to fail With every blessing I'll destroy I am the very worst of what I knew You are the end all of my sins Hushed gasps for air Pushing down on my chest to collapse Fill me with the secrets to my failure Make an example of me To find me repeating histories in the mourning Bless you For seeing the best in me Bless me For showing you the worst Bless us all For we won't try Just blame tomorrow for yesterday's died Bless you For seeing me for what I am Bless me For not holding back Bless us all For the monsters we hold inside Grow to fester in the good will of our intent Goodness, my dear Was never everlasting
9.
"Character Flaws" by William J. Lever You want a story book ending (Raised with the silver screen) But that's not how life works. Work hard kid or go for broke. This is not a joke, this is where my lines lead You should have known better When you opened your mouth To spill those lies from your throat The mark of a liar Extended with each word, presented on your face I know your shame, it's clear You'll never be a real boy Burning up, you threw the ashes in my face Spit on the aftermath to say to hell with saving face All I asked for was your faith in me But thanks to you my dreams of falling came true I prayed for love in the end All you left for me was stale air I hope you're satisfied With the ending you've written Life isn't based on make believe But you better make me believe it Cause these dreams are all I have And don't you take that away from me Life isn't based on make believe But you better make me believe it when you say it Cause these dreams are all I have And don't you take that away from me
10.
"Bro-Down Showdown" by Chris Lyons & William Lever White lines casting a haze within my weakest of moments. Sanity slipping; the shatter pattern spilling out my misery from the glass unto the floor. Addiction's filthy hands won't let loose it's noose around my neck. If were to take the leap, would you; would you follow me down Blinded eyes can't see the pain they've caused Numb, sick, and broken. Calling out for help to deaf ears. Numb, sick, and broken. You have no idea the lengths I'd go. Just to make my mark in this. Blinded eyes can't see the pain they've caused Numb, sick, and broken. Calling out for help to deaf ears. Numb, sick, and broken. In the grip of December's bite, I fall fragile as dead leaves. Flash me a smile. Just one makes all the difference. In masking, how frail I've weathered.
11.
Absentee 02:09
“ABSENTEE” by William J. Lever I don't care for people who don't care for me. People who don't see the points as to why I'm not just right where they want me. That I'm not who they want me to be. All the while they have these troubles, these troubles near as tall as mine. But even when theirs comes to tower over them they can't find it in themselves to sympathize with mine. Change! You bark. Change! You bark again. How can I accomplish alone what you were helped to achieve? You won't answer, you won't care. Because it's not your problem, you say you love me but how? When you can't be bothered to lift a finger to lift me up to the level of the status quo you expect of me. If I can't be myself, and being who you want is out of question. Then who I am I? What purpose do I serve? It's easy for you to place blame but you never helped me along. Is it my fault? I was left abandoned by my mother at three while yours made sure to tuck you in by ten? Hospitalized, force-fed medication after medication for some problem they swore I had. As if loneliness is a disease. All my life, the throwaway boy with his head in the clouds. Like the cookie jar on the corner table top Chasing dreams, you always said were too far up to reach. Dreaming for something better than this. Anything's better than this.
12.
"Year Of The Flies" by William J. Lever I want to break you just the way that you broke me When you took me from him To cast me away like a burden you bore from your womb To wade in the water where you had been caught, you over me I want to kill you like you killed me The innocence I lost is a dept You can not repay Cower, Mother Cower, Mother As I raise my hand to you Just cause I'm home sick does not mean that I long for home. I am sick, and it shows. It's the worst feeling yet, and I don't want to go Cower, Mother Cower, Mother As I show you The sum of what You left in me I've learned to hate you just the way that you hated me You can not buy my love It's not for you to see This heart in me Years of abuse, this is coming to an end. Years of abuse, this is coming to an end. You bitch. You bitch. You bitch. You bitch. You bitch. You bitch. No escaping this, the way things were meant to be. You bitch. You bitch. You bitch. Cower mother. Cower mother.

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Our debut DIY full length album five years in the making

The album draws upon the make or break moments that define who we are.

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released October 23, 2020

Guitars, bass, and drums performed and programmed by Chris Lyons
All screamed vocals, unless noted, performed by Billy Lever

Lyrics for tracks 1-5, 7-9, 11 & 12 written by Billy Lever
Lyrics for tracks 6 and 10 written by Billy Lever & Chris Lyons
Additional screams on tracks 2, 4, 11 and 12 performed by Chris Lyons
Clean vocals on tracks 6, 7, 8, 9 performed by Billy Lever
Clean vocals on track 10 and harmony on track 6 by Chris Lyons
Bass guitar for "Year Of The Flies" written by Chris Lyons & Zack Fortier
Gang vocals on tracks 1 & 4 performed by Billy Lever & Chris Lyons
Gang vocals on track 9 performed by Chris Lyons & Zac Chandler
Dinner Plate Dick Guy on "Zachary Quinto Rides In My Pinto": Pete Jamieson
Female voice on "Bless Your Heart": Jesse Gorden
"Absentee" adapted from a poem of the same title, written by Billy Lever.
Album art designed by Billy Lever.

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Incandesca Old Town, Maine

Incandesca (named for the word incandescent, meaning “full of strong emotion; passionate”) began as a studio adventure between two best friends with a passion for metal music; song-writer Chris Lyons and vocalist Billy Lever.

The project is in ever active metamorphosis.
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